I do not wish to disturb

…Your life or anyone else’s. I do not willingly and knowingly take the piss. I’m a) not that witty, b) not quick-thinking enough, and c) not that kind of girl.

It seems odd to me. Lots of things are odd. I’ve decided that from Sunday (picked at random, but seems as good a day as any) I am going to keep a rather accurate record of my thoughts and feelings for a week. Just to see what comes up really. I’ve had many random thoughts and dreams recently, which I’ve simply ignored, and I know I really shouldn’t, because every single one of them is key, and can help me unravel the biggest secret I’ve kept all my life…myself.

I thought a short while ago, is anyone going to come up with the answers? People come up with answers all the time, but generally they are the answers to questions that have not yet been asked. Are these people on target, or are they thinking way to far ahead? Will they eventually burn themselves out too?

There are people that will be remembered for many moons to come for being ‘ahead of their time’. What does this term actually mean? In the grand scheme of things time does not actually exist, so they can’t possibly be ahead of it, or behind it. Are we traveling backwards or forwards? The amazingness asked this previously, and the more I think of it, the more I wonder. Moving backwards does not seem logically possible, but then really, what is logic anyway?

The term ‘older and wiser’ no longer means a great deal, I think the smartest of all people are those that have just entered the world. I mean for a short while they are the only ones that have not been spoon-fed junk & rubbish. I suppose you can grow old and wise, but only if…how did he put it? You unlearn everything the world has taught you. Just like he is doing now I suppose; re-training his brain - or reprogramming/upgrading his software (see Culture is your operating system).

Lets go with this…

Home is your hard-drive

Culture is your operating system

Your mind is your software (complete with bugs)

The body is a virus

Media is a Trojan

Consumer goods are worms

Not knowing that much about computers, I don’t really know if all those are in the right order or likened to a correct sort of computer type illness, but I am missing a lecture for this.