I hear things. I hear voices. Yes they are inside my head. Yes, I know, it's a little strange.
I've noticed this getting stronger and stronger recently. I think they must be getting louder or more frequent because I've not slept at all well of late. Maybe I'm supposed to actually listen to the words I hear and do something. I am not sure.
Since I can remember, I have seen things while I've been laying, drifting off to sleep. And it's not just normal things, it's all sorts of things. sometimes lots, and sometimes not. The other day I had been trying to get to sleep for a fair amount of time and nothing as happening. And then things just appeared in front of me. Nothing scary, just shapes and things moving around, doing their thing. I know many people see things as they are going off to sleep. My mum sees faces, and then she knows she's about to get to sleep. My great grandfather sees people at night.
I see all manner of things. I've even looked out my window whilst laying in bed and seen a wolf in the sky. I looked away a few times, and looked back and it was still there. Is it my imagination? Is it something more? I think it has to be something more.
Recently I've been more aware of me hearing things while I've been going to sleep. And I've heard some really interesting things. They are definitely voices and not just thoughts in my head. They have all manner of different voices. Male, female, voices I recognise, voices I don't. I'm sure I should be writing thses things down. Remembering them somehow, the mind is wiling, the body just isn't.
My dreams have disturbed me somewhat of late too. And I wake up and wriggle around so much. I remember mostly nothing. The occasional snippet, but what is it that's keeping me awake at night, and when I do sleep, wakes me up?
Of course it's my other bit rumbling around inside me, telling me to listen. Listen hard and listen good. If only I knew what it all meant. I suppose the trick is to just listen. I have decided to sleep with my little light on now. I have a pad on my bed, and a pen, and so I can make notes if I wake up at silly hours. I can also jot things that I hear down before I fall asleep. Even if I do it with my eyes shut.
If I manage to work out what any hidden messages are at all I shall of course put them here.
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As people in bed are heading off to sleep strange things can seem to happen, it's cliched to say stuff like "get more sleep mate" and such though and probably isn't the case.
Apparently if you sit in a ultra quiet room for long enough you start to hear things in your body you wouldn't normally hear. It's the ears normalising volume levels (they can't hear anything so turn themselves up because they should be). Perhaps the same thing applies to vision?
I've sat in bed in the dark sometimes and seen strange things with my eyes closed, sometimes even faces. Occaisionally i'll snap out of it and realise my eyes are infact open! Remember that your entire body is a living thing, and just because your brains hibernating doesn't mean the rest is too.
However seeing and hearing things (especially voices), despite any amount of mysticism is not a good thing. Perhaps you should see maybe a psycologist, it's a big huge cliche that they automatically think ur crazy and give you drugs to sort you out, thats usually a last resort, they will probably talk no end about what could be causing these mysterious visitors, perhaps unadressed (or even unknown!) issues need to be addressed?
But the golden rule, is never listen to the voices and do what they say, they are intruders and have no right to trespass in your private space! I agree it's a good idea to write this stuff down, as if it does get worse and you go see someone, with the stuff already written they may be able to help quicker.
And don't worry about messed up dreams, thats normal. The other night i dreamt i was an android in a reality tv show. but managed to escape into the real world, like the guy in "the truman show" did!
Ps, it just occurred to me that maybe the voices are your noggins reaction to too much time alone. I'm pretty sure that theres something written about this somewhere, or perhaps i'm just talking balls and need to sort my own head out.
Get well soon!xx
ouch my fingers hurt now!! :(
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