In other words, I came, I saw, I conquered.
While I was reading a story about the Lost Dutchmans Mine, I read that some man who tried to find it was shot, and in his pocket was a note with those words. I do not know what they mean, if the man wrote it, or perhaps maybe someone else?! And was he refering to the mine, or perhaps something else?
They are all a mystery. But the thing is, those three words zapped me, made me feel slightly light headed for a moment or two, and then the episode was over. But as I recently re-discovered this outlet, I thought I was write something. Anything really. I saw the three words before, I believe that the amazingness introduced me to them, and that's possibally why I see a whole lot more in those three weird words than I should...........Generally if something came out of the amazingness, even if it's something I haven't understood, I remember it, and it hits me somewhere along the line. He's very special if I may say so myself.
It's funny isn't it, how a person or a persons words can get stuck in our heads, like nothing else mattered.
14 September 2008
13 September 2008
Mini Poem Thing
I thought of this while I was driving home this evening......
Dreaming of you keeps me awake
Being awake is a nightmare state
At least when I sleep you're there by my side
But when I wake I leave you behind
Clearly I was thinking about a certain someone when I wrote it, but I thought it was quite nice.
Now here I am hoping that nobody has written it before and that it might an original Ash masterpiece.
Dreaming of you keeps me awake
Being awake is a nightmare state
At least when I sleep you're there by my side
But when I wake I leave you behind
Clearly I was thinking about a certain someone when I wrote it, but I thought it was quite nice.
Now here I am hoping that nobody has written it before and that it might an original Ash masterpiece.
10 September 2008
What is the world coming to...? Really
I'm getting the hang of this writing thing again after a rather long rest-ish period.
I need to vent something that is kinda a current annoyance. You see I was watching the news today. I don't do it often, but today was the day. That Large Hadron Collider was turned on....so far so good, but that wasn't what got my attention today.....
The thing that got my attention, and annoyed me A LOT, was the fact that in one area adults that are in parks are being stopped an questioned by rangers in the interest of the safety of children. Has the world gone mad? They are not stopping everyone though, OH NO, just people that "look suspicious". They stopped one lady who was dressed as a penguin handing out climate change information because she might "attract children".
I'm sorry, but children in parks are generally either supervised by an adult that is quite capable of looking after their children without help from anyone else, and any other children are old enough to look after themselves, and wont be alone, but with their friends. In a group they are pretty sensible. Due to fear mongering by that old media chestnut they are aware of the potential risks, and I'm quite sure that their parents have told them to say no to strangers.
BACK OFF FFS. Apparently not doing this sort of crazy thing would be neglecting the safety of children. Will not having a policeman on every street corner watching everyones every move at all times of day also be neglecting the safety of children.
Good heavens. Not every single person on this planet is a child molesterer, and there may even be some people who find watching children play in the park a joy to behold, without malicious intent. I certainly find watching the children of today playing somewhat calming and relaxing. Does this mean I am a paedophile? No it doesn't.
I'm quite sure that not being able to wonder through a park at my own leisure and take in the sights, including children playing is really a violation of my human rights. There doesn't seem to be such a thing as freedom anymore. Certainly not in my eyes. Perhaps if Children weren't wrapped up in cotton wall as it were they'd be more streetwise anyway, and wouldn't be at such a high risk from nasty people.
It actually makes my blood boil. If it's happened in this one area, then likelihood is it will happen in more areas, and then eventually there will be a policeman on a street corner every second of the day and night watching everyones every move. If that does happen I'm sure there is no way that everyone would be completely protected. Let people deal with the idiots around them by themselves. Let us have a bit of freedom. Stop smothering us with all this safety crap. We all have the ability to asses situations ourselves. We all have a little something called common sense. We will take our own risks, and face the consequences of our own risks.
Thank you very much
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need to vent something that is kinda a current annoyance. You see I was watching the news today. I don't do it often, but today was the day. That Large Hadron Collider was turned on....so far so good, but that wasn't what got my attention today.....
The thing that got my attention, and annoyed me A LOT, was the fact that in one area adults that are in parks are being stopped an questioned by rangers in the interest of the safety of children. Has the world gone mad? They are not stopping everyone though, OH NO, just people that "look suspicious". They stopped one lady who was dressed as a penguin handing out climate change information because she might "attract children".
I'm sorry, but children in parks are generally either supervised by an adult that is quite capable of looking after their children without help from anyone else, and any other children are old enough to look after themselves, and wont be alone, but with their friends. In a group they are pretty sensible. Due to fear mongering by that old media chestnut they are aware of the potential risks, and I'm quite sure that their parents have told them to say no to strangers.
BACK OFF FFS. Apparently not doing this sort of crazy thing would be neglecting the safety of children. Will not having a policeman on every street corner watching everyones every move at all times of day also be neglecting the safety of children.
Good heavens. Not every single person on this planet is a child molesterer, and there may even be some people who find watching children play in the park a joy to behold, without malicious intent. I certainly find watching the children of today playing somewhat calming and relaxing. Does this mean I am a paedophile? No it doesn't.
I'm quite sure that not being able to wonder through a park at my own leisure and take in the sights, including children playing is really a violation of my human rights. There doesn't seem to be such a thing as freedom anymore. Certainly not in my eyes. Perhaps if Children weren't wrapped up in cotton wall as it were they'd be more streetwise anyway, and wouldn't be at such a high risk from nasty people.
It actually makes my blood boil. If it's happened in this one area, then likelihood is it will happen in more areas, and then eventually there will be a policeman on a street corner every second of the day and night watching everyones every move. If that does happen I'm sure there is no way that everyone would be completely protected. Let people deal with the idiots around them by themselves. Let us have a bit of freedom. Stop smothering us with all this safety crap. We all have the ability to asses situations ourselves. We all have a little something called common sense. We will take our own risks, and face the consequences of our own risks.
Thank you very much
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8 September 2008
Solitary confinement - alone in a world you created on your own?
I wrote this on, I think, 28th August, around 3 o'clock ish. However I have since misplaced it, but will write it as if I was there.....
Here I am sat in a Leisure Centre, supervising 26 French kids. However I am not worried about these kids. They all get along great, and seem to be integrating with the English children who are also here rather well. My attention has turned to the little English boy.
He was happily attempting to play tennis with some of the other English boys. He's clearly one of those children that just can't get to grips with sports. Much like I was, although I never made the effort, wheras he is making th effort. Anyway, these other English kids were making snide comments about the boys ability, and when other came over to play they tossed him aside like a piece of rubbish. He went to play table tennis with some of the French girls, but again was not all that good. It appeard from where I was sat that they were very encouraging, but being on your own with some French ladies, well it can't be an easy task. He continues to flit between groups, but doesn't appear to fit in anywhere. It's very sad indeed.
There is always one. There is always somebody that doesn't quite fit in. That is alienated form the group. In this case the only thing the boy has done "wrong" is by not playing sports quite as well as some of the others. He hasn't been rude or obnoxious. He has made efforts.
It makes me wonder. We are all alone. We are all living proof of that, but I often wonder whether at some stage we were not all alone. If at some stage we were actually far more alike and were far more able to relate and empathise with oneanother. It's clear in this boys case that somewhere there is a sense of belonging, the want to relate to and converse with others. To share experiences. Did suddenly while the human race was developing the wrong word get put in somewhere, meaning that kabow. Somebody suddenly has this whole new perspective on things that they could not control or understand. Did this esculate and is the reason that we are all now alone because over years we have been pushed aside for the better deal. The kid who can play sport?
As the brain and mind has developed over time then are we constantly fighting the hurt whilst at the same time loging to belong, leaving us in no real state of security, without us even knowing.
Anyway, it upsets me to see the boy wondering around on his own, desperately trying to fit in somewhere. In fact I want to cry. I'm emotional these days and feel myself about to well up at any given opportunity, so is that part of my conditioning? Is that part of me wanting to belong, and yet fighting it every step of the way.
Poor kid. I'm not so sure that we create our worlds on our own. I wonder how much this experience will affect this kid. Whether he will end up a recluse, or a complete extrovert to cover up the damage. Will he even realise where the damage comes from? Will anyone?!
Here I am sat in a Leisure Centre, supervising 26 French kids. However I am not worried about these kids. They all get along great, and seem to be integrating with the English children who are also here rather well. My attention has turned to the little English boy.
He was happily attempting to play tennis with some of the other English boys. He's clearly one of those children that just can't get to grips with sports. Much like I was, although I never made the effort, wheras he is making th effort. Anyway, these other English kids were making snide comments about the boys ability, and when other came over to play they tossed him aside like a piece of rubbish. He went to play table tennis with some of the French girls, but again was not all that good. It appeard from where I was sat that they were very encouraging, but being on your own with some French ladies, well it can't be an easy task. He continues to flit between groups, but doesn't appear to fit in anywhere. It's very sad indeed.
There is always one. There is always somebody that doesn't quite fit in. That is alienated form the group. In this case the only thing the boy has done "wrong" is by not playing sports quite as well as some of the others. He hasn't been rude or obnoxious. He has made efforts.
It makes me wonder. We are all alone. We are all living proof of that, but I often wonder whether at some stage we were not all alone. If at some stage we were actually far more alike and were far more able to relate and empathise with oneanother. It's clear in this boys case that somewhere there is a sense of belonging, the want to relate to and converse with others. To share experiences. Did suddenly while the human race was developing the wrong word get put in somewhere, meaning that kabow. Somebody suddenly has this whole new perspective on things that they could not control or understand. Did this esculate and is the reason that we are all now alone because over years we have been pushed aside for the better deal. The kid who can play sport?
As the brain and mind has developed over time then are we constantly fighting the hurt whilst at the same time loging to belong, leaving us in no real state of security, without us even knowing.
Anyway, it upsets me to see the boy wondering around on his own, desperately trying to fit in somewhere. In fact I want to cry. I'm emotional these days and feel myself about to well up at any given opportunity, so is that part of my conditioning? Is that part of me wanting to belong, and yet fighting it every step of the way.
Poor kid. I'm not so sure that we create our worlds on our own. I wonder how much this experience will affect this kid. Whether he will end up a recluse, or a complete extrovert to cover up the damage. Will he even realise where the damage comes from? Will anyone?!
7 September 2008
All the 2's and 3's
The title doesn't actually represent anything that I am about to type, for I don't actually know what mindless dribble is going to come out today. I have of late kept myself to myself. I stopped writing and doing things that gave me a means of escape from the world because I found an even greater means of escape. Yes, work, that old chestnut.
While one preoccupies them self with work, and little play time, life, while rather dull, never seems to seem to bad. Mainly because if ones mind is preoccupied they don't have to deal with minor...or even major issues surrounding them. I've never been sure if this sort of thing is good or bad. Either way, ones mind becomes frustrated. When it comes to work work work the mind doesn't have time to relax, to think. To bring up the issues that lay dormant in ones mind for a time. The body doesn't get a chance to recuperate fully, and after a short spell of working continually you feel lifeless, lack motivation, and in some cases go dolally. When it comes to no work at all, this leaves a great deal of thinking time, and one can be overloaded with a vast array of thoughts and emotions; swamped, trapped, eventually void, numb, lifeless, lacking in motivation, and of course, in some cases, doolally.
So what is this balance thing all about? Is it actually possible ot have abalance between work and rest that is entirely suitable? I don't believe that there is. Firstly work, as we know it, is repetative, full of scheduale and routine, and I don'r believe that the mind was made to deal with routine. Nature is random on the most part, yet mathematically sound. By being mathematically sound it has structure, but by being random it is balanced. You see too much structure and routine turns everything dumfound. I don't know how, or if I am right, I'm just writing my usual nonsense dribble.
I dare you to spend a day or two living solely off the earth. No house, a tent if you must, but building a shelter out of ingredients lying around you is even better. Eating berries off trees and bla bla. It's difficult because you have become acustomed to the life you lead. The one where everybody tells you what to do and how to live your life. Even if you think they don't, in subtle ways they do. But live in the randomness of the natural world and a whole host of possibilities are layed out before you.
Really if I am honest I am tired, rambling and don't know how to convey my thougths to anyone outside of my head. I'm giving it a go though, but it's no strongpoint of mine. Tata for now x
While one preoccupies them self with work, and little play time, life, while rather dull, never seems to seem to bad. Mainly because if ones mind is preoccupied they don't have to deal with minor...or even major issues surrounding them. I've never been sure if this sort of thing is good or bad. Either way, ones mind becomes frustrated. When it comes to work work work the mind doesn't have time to relax, to think. To bring up the issues that lay dormant in ones mind for a time. The body doesn't get a chance to recuperate fully, and after a short spell of working continually you feel lifeless, lack motivation, and in some cases go dolally. When it comes to no work at all, this leaves a great deal of thinking time, and one can be overloaded with a vast array of thoughts and emotions; swamped, trapped, eventually void, numb, lifeless, lacking in motivation, and of course, in some cases, doolally.
So what is this balance thing all about? Is it actually possible ot have abalance between work and rest that is entirely suitable? I don't believe that there is. Firstly work, as we know it, is repetative, full of scheduale and routine, and I don'r believe that the mind was made to deal with routine. Nature is random on the most part, yet mathematically sound. By being mathematically sound it has structure, but by being random it is balanced. You see too much structure and routine turns everything dumfound. I don't know how, or if I am right, I'm just writing my usual nonsense dribble.
I dare you to spend a day or two living solely off the earth. No house, a tent if you must, but building a shelter out of ingredients lying around you is even better. Eating berries off trees and bla bla. It's difficult because you have become acustomed to the life you lead. The one where everybody tells you what to do and how to live your life. Even if you think they don't, in subtle ways they do. But live in the randomness of the natural world and a whole host of possibilities are layed out before you.
Really if I am honest I am tired, rambling and don't know how to convey my thougths to anyone outside of my head. I'm giving it a go though, but it's no strongpoint of mine. Tata for now x
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