Happiness, Happiness, The Greatest Gift That I Possess

About a week ago now, I sat and watched The Pursuit of Happyness. I watched it because, and only because it has Will Smith in it, but as with most things nowadays it got me thinking. One line in particular stood out to me, and that was this…

“It was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. No matter what. How did he know that? “

This line is so powerful and beautiful, and it got me into such a deep thought....a thought I was really excited about.

What really is happiness?! How do we know when we are happy?! Is happiness real?! Is it an actual real emotion, or is it just a word someone came up with. How can you tell that you you are happy, can you explain to someone else what happiness is?!

I asked Stew about happiness....I sent him a text sometime in the last couple of weeks saying

“You said to me once not so long ago that you were the happiest you’d ever been, with your new philosophy of life and stuff...I am wondering how do you know what happy is?! We get told what all these emotions are and stuff, but do they actually exist, or do we just get made to believe that they do?”

To which he replied

“Its good your thinking this way, but happiness is what you make it. It easy to teach, its harder to learn what it is without an open mind”

So the pursuit of happiness....I am firmly in the belief that true happiness does exist, but that true happiness can only be found by having experienced true struggles and tests...not just the ones that are brought on by bouts of self-pity that you have only yourself to blame for, but real struggles....

For having the belief in yourself to overcome those struggles.....when you overcome these major struggles and pull yourself to right, and continue to believe in and love yourself....well that will lead to one euphoric moment....that euphoric moment is HAPPINESS.

There are thousands of ways of describing the good feelings that you get....happiness is used far too widely and loosely, and I think it has lost it’s true meaning. Happiness is the one defining moment of your life. It is that one defining moment that only you can feel and nobody else...but at that moment you will be so overwhelmed with emotion...and you will never forget it.

I wish to have one of these moments, and as I lay on my “death bed” I wish to look back over all my life and remember this moment above everything else.

So back to the film, not the best film of all time....but it worth watching it just to see how someone can overcome struggle and hardship, and how someone can experience happiness....it is worth watching the whole film for the line I quoted earlier...and this

“This part of my life… this little part… is called ‘happyness’.”

Do You Really Think What You Think You Think?

Well....I’ve been wondering this for a little while....the blog following this may explain why.....I don’t know what it’s going to say yet...haha so actually it might not =)

So dreams....they are seemingly random images that come from your sub/unconscious....many people don’t ever remember them, some people do, most that do dream, dream in black and white, and a few dream in colour.

Dreams mean a lot more than people think. As the great Carl Jung realised they are random images, but they have meaning.....everything you see in your dreams is a message for you to work out, and see, to understand things deep within you....things about you that you might not even know are there....they can show things you want....things you don’t want....troubles you are going through....troubles that may come....but best of all, they show you how to overcome many things....you just need to spend a bit of time looking at them and reflecting on them. Which is actually very easy once you’ve given it a go a few times.

So do you really think what you think you think?! And what I mean is that some really random though that may pop into your mind at some random time....well if dreams mean something far different from what it at first seems....then why don’t thoughts.

For example....a thought such as “I wonder what Italian cows look like” could actually really mean something like “I think I’ll have spag bol for tea”...hummm...not quite the philosophical or spiritual thing I was going for...but that was quite random, and could actually be a symbolic representation of something else.....if that makes sense.

And are there thoughts that run through your head that you choose to ignore....the things you don’t like to think you think, but actually you do....I have no idea....but I intend to do some reading on this matter to see what happens =)

A Good Or Bad Year?

So far this year has been a bit of a roller coaster ride. There are two ways to look at it.....I could reflect on the year as a whole and think to myself that it’s been pretty rubbish. I’ve been in love with someone, and hated them...I’ve been miserable and turned into a bit of a recluse for a while. I dropped a load of friends for a while, and a load of friends dropped me...but I think the year so far has been amazing.

To start off with, way way way back in January the 3rd January to be precise Stew found me on Myspace. Although we have had our ups and our downs over the past 8 months, it has to be said, that for all the times I’ve hated him, loved him and not understood him, he did something for me that nobody else has ever done. Stewart introduced me to this whole new world, this whole new life that I never knew existed, and yet it has always existed. I thank him very much and think he is an absolute star.

For ages I was bogged down with it, I let all these bizarre things consume me, I thought about and analysed everything. I saw things in people that I never saw before, I saw people’s bad sides too. I didn’t want to be around people, I only wanted to be around one person, who also happened to be the person I wanted to be around least.....sounds odd I know, I’ve only realised this recently. As much as I love Stew, and of that I am certain, the turmoil my mind went through almost everytime we met or communicated by any means, simply says to me not to bother, and I understand that now, it just took me while to see it.

Anyway, this whole new world. It is a world full of corruption, and people being fed information that is a whole load of rubbish to dumb them down so that they can’t think for themselves. People being told how they should and shouldn’t behave, what’s normal, what’s acceptable. This happens everyday, and nobody notices. I do not understand why, or how people can’t notice, but it’s so true. It’s not all bad though. The good in this world far outweighs the bad in every way possible. But the majority of people have never seen the good in the world, for they are fed and fuelled by media and news...which is more often than not bad news. An earthquake, bomb, war, famine.....all these are negative things....trouble is the more negative things people see, the more negative they feel about the world we live in and never bother to see the good stuff. TRY IT!!

The good stuff.....well the good stuff is you. It’s me. It’s your loved ones. It’s everybody. The energy that people have running through them however is generally used to negative effect. People don’t know how to be positive anymore. Look past the bad stuff, I dare you. If you look back over your life, forget the bad bits....remember only the happy bits. The times when you felt good, you had fun. Dance a little....just do a random jig every so often. Listen to music that takes you back to that time. Music is amazing....you meet someone and have nothing in common with them....but music moves everyone in different ways....speak to someone about music, what kind they like...wow!!

So I started to think more positively about most stuff....admittedly not everything....and as soon as you change your mindset everything seems so much better. Try it, please do try it....and if you don’t believe me that changing your mindset is the only way possible to achieve something....well Shaz recommended a book to me, it’s called The Secret....I’ve only read about 20 pages, but it’s backed up so much stuff that Stewart taught me, and that I though myself already, I cannot believe it.

It’s funny, at the end of 2006 I didn’t want to come into 2007 because it’s a odd-numbered year, and I am a bit superstitious....but from the word go the year has been good. Like I say it’s had it’s ups and downs, but I’ve had experiences that this year have changed me as a person, changed my mindset, changed my way of thinking. Bought me new friends, helped me communicate better with old ones....and given me the most amazing and intense feelings I’ve ever felt....and it’s all down to one message at some weird time on 3rd January from a person I kinda recognised , but didn’t at the same time (I did work out who they were the next day), who from their Myspace profile sounded interesting, and had me feeling something for them straight away....

I said this to a friend a couple of weeks ago about an old friend that walked back into her life.....I’m sure she wont mind me using a snip of the advice I gave her.....

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friends come into our lives for various different reasons, and fulfill certain things....I guess you never really know what until you sit back in a million years and reflect on all the relations you’ve had with people, and maybe then when you have the perception it will become clear. We learn more about these things as we experience things....we at this precise moment are far tooo young and ignorant to understand this fully....but there is definitely something in what I just wrote.

Anyways, if a person is worth having in your life then they will be in your life at random times, for random lengths of time, and will often leave and re-enter it faster than you can say Bobs your Uncle!!

Now I’m not saying that because this person has miraculously just found you that everything will be back to what it once was....I’d think of it like starting a fresh if I were you...forget all the problems you had in the past.....after all, you can’t change what happened, that time has been and gone....you cannot tell at this moment what will come from this friendship.....all you can do is go along with what is happening at the present moment. live for you, and live for now. If you want this person in your life them welcome them back and let go of past happenings....or they could destroy things in the present....do you get what I am saying?! Make of that what you will.....it’s a bit cryptic I know, but the only way to learn these things is to work it all out for ourselves....other people can influence you, but only YOU can follow your heart!!

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My verdict:- A good year, and things can only get better